So...yeah, I was supposed to continue writing the night after the last...yeah...missed that memo, no worries though...I can continue on where I left off...
Now as stated before that I had engaged into a debate with another person (who did happen to be of the opposite sex) into who had more scars...
"You show me your scars and i'll show you mine, then you'll see how much of a better life you have..."
After I had fired that line towards her, she instantly got off the IM device...I thought to myself "that's what I thought, run from your problems"...I'm telling you, I was in the fighting mood that night.
What I didn't plan on was her returning online and appologizing for leaving in haste and how that was rude of her...
I was picking the fight...
I was being the jerk...
I should of been the one to say "sorry"....
However, I did continue the conversation with the individual, the thoughts of scars and such had long passed and we actually just talked. I spoke of how I knew her from the women's soccer team at the university. She was the goal keeper and WAS GOOD! Eventually as the nights passed on we continued to talk, I got to hear her testimony, how she became a Christian, and folks let me tell you this...she has scars. Instead of being so defensive with the "oh yeah, well in my life...". When I heard her story, I actually felt a part of my heart break. It was so sad, yet inspirational. She explained why she wanted to work with youth so badly. Also, she spoke of her facial piercings (tongue, nose, lip, ears...), which I found entertaining to say the least. We spoke of our homes, our families, she's not from around her, actually she's south of her...way south...like past Columbia (the country) south...she's actually from Brazil. WOW!
I find it funny that you don't really think of anything "special" between you and an another individual until they bring it up. I had been noting her facebook status (you know how you can change it to read "so and so IS [blank]" and fill it in with whatever you want). I noted one of them that caught my eye and I had driven home for the weekend, while online I asked her about it....and that's when I got the shock of my life...
A little backgroud on this girl (don't worry I'm not creating it to where if she reads this I'm going to die). She had been in a relationship 4 years ago, and was absolutely crushed when it ended, since then she had been hesitant to fall in love, to be in a serious relationship, the girl had been seriously hurt. Here was the problem, I was slowly reminding her of the things that she loved about that guy, at the same time though she was really enjoying me for me. There were differences but there were similarities.
What does a guy do in a moment like that? Cut and run? Or step up to bat...
I hit it out of the park...
One thing earlier had really stuck out to me and that was her spiritual strength. Anyone that can put Christ above everyone and everything else, has my vote.
I had to sit back for a moment, reading those words over and over, making sure that this was actually happening...and it was at the moment one of the strangest things happened to me...
Peace...
I felt it, all of sudden everything just clicked into where they were to be and it all made sense. For anyone else, in this setup, you'd shake your head and run away, but in my own personal life, it made perfect sense. I liked her, I actually liked her, her personality and heart for Christ had drawn me to her.
I held my breath and told her that, and wouldn't you know it, the feeling was mutual.
That was nearly three weeks ago.
I must admit, love has touched me. We were talking one night and we both had come to the same conclusion, love was not in the cards for either one of us. Don't you love it when you make God laugh?
I was expecting my parents to say,"What are you doing? You're going to fast!" And we've got that a few time already, but my parents reminded me of something. They dated for two weeks and then they were engaged. Not saying that is what is going to happen, but it's moments like that, that remind me that God doesn't always go by "the books". He works differently for each one of us.
I'm here to report that I have a best friend, someone I can trust, someone who came out to me and bluntly stated that she desires me to tell her my problems so that we can work through it together.
Understand that I fought my emotions many times over this. It makes complete sense that I don't want to make the same mistake twice. These things though I do know:
I've never felt so comfortable around one person
I've never felt so open around one person
I thought I knew what it was like to feel loved, I was completely wrong, this...this blows it out of the water
I am hooked to this girl, she's absolutely amazing, she's real, she has problems, issues, moments of sorrow and happiness.
A good friend of mine put it this way to me when we were talking one evening, "God allows us to have what we want, then He gives us what we need".
It is so true.
I am happy to report that I, the writer, am in love.
And the feeling is mutual...
Now as stated before that I had engaged into a debate with another person (who did happen to be of the opposite sex) into who had more scars...
"You show me your scars and i'll show you mine, then you'll see how much of a better life you have..."
After I had fired that line towards her, she instantly got off the IM device...I thought to myself "that's what I thought, run from your problems"...I'm telling you, I was in the fighting mood that night.
What I didn't plan on was her returning online and appologizing for leaving in haste and how that was rude of her...
I was picking the fight...
I was being the jerk...
I should of been the one to say "sorry"....
However, I did continue the conversation with the individual, the thoughts of scars and such had long passed and we actually just talked. I spoke of how I knew her from the women's soccer team at the university. She was the goal keeper and WAS GOOD! Eventually as the nights passed on we continued to talk, I got to hear her testimony, how she became a Christian, and folks let me tell you this...she has scars. Instead of being so defensive with the "oh yeah, well in my life...". When I heard her story, I actually felt a part of my heart break. It was so sad, yet inspirational. She explained why she wanted to work with youth so badly. Also, she spoke of her facial piercings (tongue, nose, lip, ears...), which I found entertaining to say the least. We spoke of our homes, our families, she's not from around her, actually she's south of her...way south...like past Columbia (the country) south...she's actually from Brazil. WOW!
I find it funny that you don't really think of anything "special" between you and an another individual until they bring it up. I had been noting her facebook status (you know how you can change it to read "so and so IS [blank]" and fill it in with whatever you want). I noted one of them that caught my eye and I had driven home for the weekend, while online I asked her about it....and that's when I got the shock of my life...
A little backgroud on this girl (don't worry I'm not creating it to where if she reads this I'm going to die). She had been in a relationship 4 years ago, and was absolutely crushed when it ended, since then she had been hesitant to fall in love, to be in a serious relationship, the girl had been seriously hurt. Here was the problem, I was slowly reminding her of the things that she loved about that guy, at the same time though she was really enjoying me for me. There were differences but there were similarities.
What does a guy do in a moment like that? Cut and run? Or step up to bat...
I hit it out of the park...
One thing earlier had really stuck out to me and that was her spiritual strength. Anyone that can put Christ above everyone and everything else, has my vote.
I had to sit back for a moment, reading those words over and over, making sure that this was actually happening...and it was at the moment one of the strangest things happened to me...
Peace...
I felt it, all of sudden everything just clicked into where they were to be and it all made sense. For anyone else, in this setup, you'd shake your head and run away, but in my own personal life, it made perfect sense. I liked her, I actually liked her, her personality and heart for Christ had drawn me to her.
I held my breath and told her that, and wouldn't you know it, the feeling was mutual.
That was nearly three weeks ago.
I must admit, love has touched me. We were talking one night and we both had come to the same conclusion, love was not in the cards for either one of us. Don't you love it when you make God laugh?
I was expecting my parents to say,"What are you doing? You're going to fast!" And we've got that a few time already, but my parents reminded me of something. They dated for two weeks and then they were engaged. Not saying that is what is going to happen, but it's moments like that, that remind me that God doesn't always go by "the books". He works differently for each one of us.
I'm here to report that I have a best friend, someone I can trust, someone who came out to me and bluntly stated that she desires me to tell her my problems so that we can work through it together.
Understand that I fought my emotions many times over this. It makes complete sense that I don't want to make the same mistake twice. These things though I do know:
I've never felt so comfortable around one person
I've never felt so open around one person
I thought I knew what it was like to feel loved, I was completely wrong, this...this blows it out of the water
I am hooked to this girl, she's absolutely amazing, she's real, she has problems, issues, moments of sorrow and happiness.
A good friend of mine put it this way to me when we were talking one evening, "God allows us to have what we want, then He gives us what we need".
It is so true.
I am happy to report that I, the writer, am in love.
And the feeling is mutual...
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